Emerge into Forever by Andrea Michelle

Author:Andrea Michelle [Michelle, Andrea]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Andrea Michelle
Published: 2014-10-12T07:00:00+00:00

I’d spent the duration of the night scrambling to come up with a plan and feeling drunk. I didn’t tell my dad I was fucked. I didn’t tell Riley I was a failure when we spoke on the phone and I hated that I blew her off. I don’t think I had even admitted to myself that it was done and over. I didn’t have a spot on the LSU football team any longer. I needed to send out emails, make phone calls to past recruits, apply to various schools, submit my financial aid and pray. Pray hard for it to work out in my favor. Work out to where Riley and I could be together, not apart.

I was researching all of this shit before Collin came to pick me up this morning. It’s Mardi Gras and we are spending the weekend in NOLA. A perfect distraction to my current nightmare, except it wasn’t because it was a first without Riley. On top of that, Natalie would be there getting on my last nerves.

An email notification pops up on my laptop and my heart jumps to life.

From: Riley Shaw

Josh,

I don’t know how to do this well. To put into words the things I feel. I practice it in the mirror, in private and it’s like every time I pick up the phone to actually say it out loud, I choke. I know I am keeping you at arm’s length and telling you that it’s the way I want it to be. Truth is, it’s the way I thought it had to be until we figure things out. Not that I want it to be that way. Because what I want is you. What I need is you. It’s timing, though. Our timing is never right, and it’s never easy, not that I believe it will ever be. So, I don’t want to wait for it to be perfect. I just want us to be together and I think if we are meant to be then eventually it will just happen, right? I don’t want to push and I don’t want you to pull. I just want it to happen. You’re my best friend, the boy I love with every breath I take and just in case you don’t know this yet…I miss you.

XoXo Riley

Then she left me a link to our YouTube channel and right there above my latest video of me playing Distance by Jack & Jack with the band at Daryl’s, is hers. I hit play and then paused it with my heart thundering in my chest. I stare at her beautiful face and feel so lost for words. I just lost my scholarship. She spent a year in misery because of this and how was I going to explain I wasn’t good enough and it was all for nothing. The video had been uploaded last night and I was drunk, too drunk to tell her I fucked this up. The title: My Reply – Apart we are a mess, but together we are music.

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